i started to feel too much today, so i decided to bake these.
Friday, July 27, 2012
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Monday, July 23, 2012
Girls Girls Girls
Today, was a day about Girls. the HBO show (which i'm officially obsessed with) as well as my girlfriends. i'm pretty honored that everyone has been venting to me and coming to me for advice about:
relationships relationships relationships.
no lie, i've been vented to about 4 different people's relationships today, which is perfectly fine. i'm all for giving out advice. i just find it so ironic? or fascinating. i honestly don't even know what to say. i'm at a loss for words because of how ridiculous my life seems to be right now. it just seems as if my life is surrounded by relationships. everyone is having this kind of relationship or that kind of relationship. i've realized that every relationship is unique in its own way, which makes it difficult for me to give out advice sometimes. i'm not the predictor of the future and relationships shouldn't necessarily be categorized. the mystery of true love is that no one really knows much about it. there is no concrete evidence. just subjective. feelings, emotions, senses, thoughts. i guess you can say that we're blindly groping our way around to figure out what this love really is. the love that everyone is after. now, i'm starting to get a little philosophical...
but, i do always wonder, what really makes a successful relationship? how does true love work? is there a specific formula or route? overanalyzing it is probably not the best path to take; therefore, i try to focus on the present. don't worry about the future until the present becomes the future. since i work for a cupcake store i imagine my customers eating their cupcakes. think about the process of eating a cupcake. you don't worry about the end after having eaten the cupcake before you eat it, you just focus on how good it tastes and the smile it brings to your lips. in other words, if things are going well, don't search for problems or mistakes. just be happy and be grateful
relationships relationships relationships.
no lie, i've been vented to about 4 different people's relationships today, which is perfectly fine. i'm all for giving out advice. i just find it so ironic? or fascinating. i honestly don't even know what to say. i'm at a loss for words because of how ridiculous my life seems to be right now. it just seems as if my life is surrounded by relationships. everyone is having this kind of relationship or that kind of relationship. i've realized that every relationship is unique in its own way, which makes it difficult for me to give out advice sometimes. i'm not the predictor of the future and relationships shouldn't necessarily be categorized. the mystery of true love is that no one really knows much about it. there is no concrete evidence. just subjective. feelings, emotions, senses, thoughts. i guess you can say that we're blindly groping our way around to figure out what this love really is. the love that everyone is after. now, i'm starting to get a little philosophical...
Lovesick
but, i do always wonder, what really makes a successful relationship? how does true love work? is there a specific formula or route? overanalyzing it is probably not the best path to take; therefore, i try to focus on the present. don't worry about the future until the present becomes the future. since i work for a cupcake store i imagine my customers eating their cupcakes. think about the process of eating a cupcake. you don't worry about the end after having eaten the cupcake before you eat it, you just focus on how good it tastes and the smile it brings to your lips. in other words, if things are going well, don't search for problems or mistakes. just be happy and be grateful
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Day 14?
Losing track of the days...must stop procrastinating!
Failures
1. being friendly to customers. i was just not having it. i apologize to whoever encountered my moodiness that day
2. finding my way around in brooklyn. having an iPhone would've helped i admit, but i still refuse to give in
3. taking care of my body. lately, i haven't been eating properly, drinking enough water, and taking my vitamins; therefore, leading to sickness
Successes
1. regaining my composure
2. surviving my double shift (10 hours)
3. welcoming The Guy home by bringing him cupcakes from work after he his horrendous traveling experience
4. almost fainting on the street. i was on my way to dinner and thought i was fine after not eating the entire day until i started to sway and almost tipped over from walking. i was also pretty dehydrated after alternating between vodka and wine the night before
Failures
1. being friendly to customers. i was just not having it. i apologize to whoever encountered my moodiness that day
2. finding my way around in brooklyn. having an iPhone would've helped i admit, but i still refuse to give in
3. taking care of my body. lately, i haven't been eating properly, drinking enough water, and taking my vitamins; therefore, leading to sickness
Successes
1. regaining my composure
2. surviving my double shift (10 hours)
3. welcoming The Guy home by bringing him cupcakes from work after he his horrendous traveling experience
4. almost fainting on the street. i was on my way to dinner and thought i was fine after not eating the entire day until i started to sway and almost tipped over from walking. i was also pretty dehydrated after alternating between vodka and wine the night before
Thursday, July 19, 2012
A Day Late 13
Failures
1. conquering a gigantic moth. it flew into the store and chased me into a corner. whoever was watching the cameras in the BBM office were probably hysterically laughing
2. being patient. keeping my cool. (explanation below)
Successes
1. beating the summer hail storm so as not to get my hydrangeas wet. chicka-chicka-yeahhhh
2. catching up with Bridge_titz over margs, who's finally back from her visit across the pond!
3. cleaning, preparing, putting in lots of effort into welcoming The Guy back home. my efforts have turned into failures however. his layover in Chi-city was delayed until this afternoon. it's ironic because my dad works at O'Hare on the night shift and The Guy was there longer than my dad was.
4. stopping myself from throwing out the cupcakes i bought to be dramatic
5. losing it. yes. huge success.
1. conquering a gigantic moth. it flew into the store and chased me into a corner. whoever was watching the cameras in the BBM office were probably hysterically laughing
2. being patient. keeping my cool. (explanation below)
Successes
1. beating the summer hail storm so as not to get my hydrangeas wet. chicka-chicka-yeahhhh
2. catching up with Bridge_titz over margs, who's finally back from her visit across the pond!
3. cleaning, preparing, putting in lots of effort into welcoming The Guy back home. my efforts have turned into failures however. his layover in Chi-city was delayed until this afternoon. it's ironic because my dad works at O'Hare on the night shift and The Guy was there longer than my dad was.
4. stopping myself from throwing out the cupcakes i bought to be dramatic
5. losing it. yes. huge success.
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Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Day 12
Failures
1. getting too self-conscious to play classical music at jazz. yup, i admit it. for some reason today, i just couldn't do it. i kept feeling as if i was sinning, trying to play Chopin, while in the rooms around me all i heard was Charlie Parker.
2. organizing my hard drive
3. organizing my documents
4. backing everything up on my hard drive
5. eating...i had one sandwich today. it was too hot for my stomach to want anything to eat.
Successes
1. realizing that i should fail more; therefore, perhaps praise my failures?
2. picking up the 2 most important books i will read: Just Kids by Patti Smith and The Best Advice I Ever Got by Katie Couric
3. starting my second blog called "PMS Diaries". READ IT BITCHES. and email me some stories please :) pmsinghardcore.blogspot.com. Here is an overview of what it's about: realistic, but hilarious, ridiculous, knee-slapping stories/experiences when girls are PMSing. I guess you could say this is an effort to prove to all the men (and some women...lucky bitches) who believe that PMS is an excuse. Yes. There are actually people out there who believe this. And it MUST BE ENDED!
4. being a silly girl
5. writing a hormonal imbalance-influenced post
1. getting too self-conscious to play classical music at jazz. yup, i admit it. for some reason today, i just couldn't do it. i kept feeling as if i was sinning, trying to play Chopin, while in the rooms around me all i heard was Charlie Parker.
2. organizing my hard drive
3. organizing my documents
4. backing everything up on my hard drive
5. eating...i had one sandwich today. it was too hot for my stomach to want anything to eat.
Successes
1. realizing that i should fail more; therefore, perhaps praise my failures?
2. picking up the 2 most important books i will read: Just Kids by Patti Smith and The Best Advice I Ever Got by Katie Couric
3. starting my second blog called "PMS Diaries". READ IT BITCHES. and email me some stories please :) pmsinghardcore.blogspot.com. Here is an overview of what it's about: realistic, but hilarious, ridiculous, knee-slapping stories/experiences when girls are PMSing. I guess you could say this is an effort to prove to all the men (and some women...lucky bitches) who believe that PMS is an excuse. Yes. There are actually people out there who believe this. And it MUST BE ENDED!
4. being a silly girl
5. writing a hormonal imbalance-influenced post
Monday, July 16, 2012
Days 10-11 - bumbumbumbum
Bummmmmmmming hardcore.
Failures
1. Having my wisdom teeth pulled :( I've been putting this off for about 6 years now...and they are slowly coming in
Successes
1. Finally finished my puzzle!
2. At work today, I helped a guy figure out how he was going to propose to his girlfriend (she loves BBM cupcakes).
3. While reading Edgar Allan Poe's Complete Tales and Poems in Washington Square Park, a man sat down next to the bench next to mine. Not thinking anything of it, I continued to read on. He looked at my book cover (as apparently everybody else had been, according to him) because the book I was holding was as big as a dictionary and had "Edgar Allan Poe" stamped across the front in gigantic letters. Now, why would this little girl be reading about Edgar Allan Poe and not about the Kardashians or some other piece of reading that turns your brain into mush. This is something along the lines of what he chuckled to me and from then we kept up a conversation. He was a writer who, coincidentally was reading his email conversations regarding the designs for his new book, and I am an aspiring children's book illustrator. We laughed at the coincidence and eventually exchanged contact information.
This is a slap-in-the-face example of the philosophy that I strongly believe in: Everything happens for a reason. I guess it's the same as believing in string theory. There was a reason I decided to walk into Barnes and Noble and go to the bargain books section and notice the insignificant stack of Edgar Allan Poe books for only $8. There was a reason I decided to read in the park that day instead of going back to my apartment as I usually do. There was a reason I met this man.
There was a reason I ate all those Trader Joe's Dunkers...
...so that I will regret them later
Failures
1. Having my wisdom teeth pulled :( I've been putting this off for about 6 years now...and they are slowly coming in
Successes
1. Finally finished my puzzle!
2. At work today, I helped a guy figure out how he was going to propose to his girlfriend (she loves BBM cupcakes).
3. While reading Edgar Allan Poe's Complete Tales and Poems in Washington Square Park, a man sat down next to the bench next to mine. Not thinking anything of it, I continued to read on. He looked at my book cover (as apparently everybody else had been, according to him) because the book I was holding was as big as a dictionary and had "Edgar Allan Poe" stamped across the front in gigantic letters. Now, why would this little girl be reading about Edgar Allan Poe and not about the Kardashians or some other piece of reading that turns your brain into mush. This is something along the lines of what he chuckled to me and from then we kept up a conversation. He was a writer who, coincidentally was reading his email conversations regarding the designs for his new book, and I am an aspiring children's book illustrator. We laughed at the coincidence and eventually exchanged contact information.
This is a slap-in-the-face example of the philosophy that I strongly believe in: Everything happens for a reason. I guess it's the same as believing in string theory. There was a reason I decided to walk into Barnes and Noble and go to the bargain books section and notice the insignificant stack of Edgar Allan Poe books for only $8. There was a reason I decided to read in the park that day instead of going back to my apartment as I usually do. There was a reason I met this man.
There was a reason I ate all those Trader Joe's Dunkers...
...so that I will regret them later
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Saturday, July 14, 2012
Day 9 - Friday the 13th
Why, on Friday the 13th, did everybody decide to buy cupcakes?
Failures
1. finishing my puzzle. i'm close
2. finding my camera :( i wanted to take pictures of my life but i guess now i'll just have to draw everything, which isn't a bad idea
3. eating. i couldn't bring myself to eating real food. i had coffee and trader joe's dunkers
Successes
1. sprained my wrist a little at work. i don't know how. work was extremely and unnecessarily hectic; therefore, i am currently typing with one hand...hresfasszfgxgcmhg,jhlutrsagbn
2. being more extroverted
3. told my best friend i wanted a cat friend and she laughed in my face. i've been watching way too many movies that have cats serving the role of the sidekick. it would be nice to have a cat sidekick. and for it to sit on my dream grand piano, in my lovely dream home, swishing its tail to the tune i play.
Notes:
According to Delia, I am a period queen. I like to be dramatic. At times...
I intentionally do not use proper grammar sometimes. Just clarifying.
I like Mexican food.
....so I'm going to make quesadillas now. Good Night!
Failures
1. finishing my puzzle. i'm close
2. finding my camera :( i wanted to take pictures of my life but i guess now i'll just have to draw everything, which isn't a bad idea
3. eating. i couldn't bring myself to eating real food. i had coffee and trader joe's dunkers
Successes
1. sprained my wrist a little at work. i don't know how. work was extremely and unnecessarily hectic; therefore, i am currently typing with one hand...hresfasszfgxgcmhg,jhlutrsagbn
2. being more extroverted
3. told my best friend i wanted a cat friend and she laughed in my face. i've been watching way too many movies that have cats serving the role of the sidekick. it would be nice to have a cat sidekick. and for it to sit on my dream grand piano, in my lovely dream home, swishing its tail to the tune i play.
Notes:
According to Delia, I am a period queen. I like to be dramatic. At times...
I intentionally do not use proper grammar sometimes. Just clarifying.
I like Mexican food.
....so I'm going to make quesadillas now. Good Night!
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Day 9 - Rejuvenated
With the help of my friend "Amelzbdealz" I picked my lazy ass off my awesome, blue, Victorian couch and stepped out into the real world fully rejuvenated today!
Failures
1. Beginning my visual journal. I was uber pumped up to tackle this new project but got interrupted. Fortunately, it was a good interruption.
2. Practicing piano
Successes
1. Bought a new sketchbook! Moleskins are pricey but so worth it. I can't get myself to buy any other kind of sketchbook. They are simple, high-quality, and sexy looking.
2. Began my 750 piece puzzle! Woohoo! It is slowly progressing.
3. Made a new friend today! This was the happy interruption :)
4. Re-watching all the seasons of Arrested Development. The best thing The Guy has introduced me to, and Jazz...and many other things as well...:)
5. Spoke to my bestest friend in the entire world for the first time in a month! That's an entire year in girl world. We literally were speechless at times because we couldn't remember where we had left off in each other's lives.
5. Today is a smiley day :)
I like to write lists...
Successes win!
Failures
1. Beginning my visual journal. I was uber pumped up to tackle this new project but got interrupted. Fortunately, it was a good interruption.
2. Practicing piano
Successes
1. Bought a new sketchbook! Moleskins are pricey but so worth it. I can't get myself to buy any other kind of sketchbook. They are simple, high-quality, and sexy looking.
2. Began my 750 piece puzzle! Woohoo! It is slowly progressing.
3. Made a new friend today! This was the happy interruption :)
4. Re-watching all the seasons of Arrested Development. The best thing The Guy has introduced me to, and Jazz...and many other things as well...:)
5. Spoke to my bestest friend in the entire world for the first time in a month! That's an entire year in girl world. We literally were speechless at times because we couldn't remember where we had left off in each other's lives.
5. Today is a smiley day :)
I like to write lists...
Successes win!
Day 8
okay i know i skipped a few days...
Failures
1. practicing at jazz. threw off my entire day. thanks.
2. picking up my laundry. yes, i know i'm a diva with my laundry but the people across the street are magical and clean my clothes the way they should be cleaned. unlike how i do them
3. going to think coffee. the days i tell myself i will, i don't. how ironic.
Successes
1. practiced at mannes
2. went to yoga! so glad marissa told me she was going. really needed that today.
3. finally went into the Toys R Us in Times Square
4. bought myself a puzzle. yes i'm lame.
words of wisdom from today:
being a girl sucks sometimes. also, if a genie were to ever grant me 3 wishes, my first one would be for ever male to experience what PMS feels like. then they wouldn't joke about it or think we're using it as an excuse (this has actually happened to me. boy did i throw a fit). they will become much moresympathetic empathetic.
hopefully i will write a more interesting post with colorful rainbows and glittery pictures soon...once i stop fatiguing out so hard...
Failures
1. practicing at jazz. threw off my entire day. thanks.
2. picking up my laundry. yes, i know i'm a diva with my laundry but the people across the street are magical and clean my clothes the way they should be cleaned. unlike how i do them
3. going to think coffee. the days i tell myself i will, i don't. how ironic.
Successes
1. practiced at mannes
2. went to yoga! so glad marissa told me she was going. really needed that today.
3. finally went into the Toys R Us in Times Square
4. bought myself a puzzle. yes i'm lame.
words of wisdom from today:
being a girl sucks sometimes. also, if a genie were to ever grant me 3 wishes, my first one would be for ever male to experience what PMS feels like. then they wouldn't joke about it or think we're using it as an excuse (this has actually happened to me. boy did i throw a fit). they will become much more
hopefully i will write a more interesting post with colorful rainbows and glittery pictures soon...once i stop fatiguing out so hard...
Monday, July 9, 2012
Day 7 - PMS
it's a pissed at men syndrome kind of day. (stolen from Friends with Benefits)
Failures
1. showering...again
2. eating a balanced/healthy meal. i don't believe eating some chips and salsa, a bagel, Trader Joe's dunkers, and some chocolate counts for an appropriate diet
3. getting off my couch. it just calls to me.
4. enjoying the movie The Last Song. i didn't really like the book either, but my roommate and i agree the movie wasn't any better
Successes
1. practicing piano
2. realizing i'm not going insane, mother nature is just on her way
3. oversharing
4. ...but not giving a fuck
5. craving fried chicken
Failures
1. showering...again
2. eating a balanced/healthy meal. i don't believe eating some chips and salsa, a bagel, Trader Joe's dunkers, and some chocolate counts for an appropriate diet
3. getting off my couch. it just calls to me.
4. enjoying the movie The Last Song. i didn't really like the book either, but my roommate and i agree the movie wasn't any better
Successes
1. practicing piano
2. realizing i'm not going insane, mother nature is just on her way
3. oversharing
4. ...but not giving a fuck
5. craving fried chicken
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Day 6
Failures
1. going to yoga (again)
2. being productive
3. showering...(my laziness has risen to another level)
4. forgetting my water bottle at work (as always...)
Successes
1. opened my jar of salsa
2. opened my jar of salsa without splattering it everywhere!
3. being a lazy bum
4. japanese animated movie marathon! (my neighbor totoro, kiki's delivery service, spirited away)
5. not moving from my couch since i got off work at 1pm
6. not buying Murray's bagels (i swear they're crack bagels)
Disclaimer:
I'm convincing myself that my laziness lately is only acceptable because I've been opening for work for the past 5-6 days? And still going to be opening tomorrow. a.k.a. waking up at 6-7am in the mornings during the summer. My sleep schedule has been really screwed up especially since I become an owl during this glorious season; therefore, suddenly going to bed at midnight is rather impossible instead of 3am. Resulting in major fatigue. And lots of chillin' on my couch. Thank God we have a remote for the a/c (because our a/c is literally only 4 ft away from the couch).
Some thoughts...
-still refusing to succumb to the iPhone trend
-technology sucks but unfortunately we can't live without it
-really want a tattoo for my birthday but i'm indecisive (surprise)
-saw my dream cat today! black tuxedo cat with white paws!
-can i just be Martha Stewart already?
1. going to yoga (again)
2. being productive
3. showering...(my laziness has risen to another level)
4. forgetting my water bottle at work (as always...)
Successes
1. opened my jar of salsa
2. opened my jar of salsa without splattering it everywhere!
3. being a lazy bum
4. japanese animated movie marathon! (my neighbor totoro, kiki's delivery service, spirited away)
5. not moving from my couch since i got off work at 1pm
6. not buying Murray's bagels (i swear they're crack bagels)
Disclaimer:
I'm convincing myself that my laziness lately is only acceptable because I've been opening for work for the past 5-6 days? And still going to be opening tomorrow. a.k.a. waking up at 6-7am in the mornings during the summer. My sleep schedule has been really screwed up especially since I become an owl during this glorious season; therefore, suddenly going to bed at midnight is rather impossible instead of 3am. Resulting in major fatigue. And lots of chillin' on my couch. Thank God we have a remote for the a/c (because our a/c is literally only 4 ft away from the couch).
Some thoughts...
-still refusing to succumb to the iPhone trend
-technology sucks but unfortunately we can't live without it
-really want a tattoo for my birthday but i'm indecisive (surprise)
-saw my dream cat today! black tuxedo cat with white paws!
-can i just be Martha Stewart already?
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Saturday, July 7, 2012
Day 5
Failures
1-5. i failed too many times at work today to even describe
6. walking to work
7. going to yoga
8. beginning the Jillian Michael's cleanse
Successes
1. survived a double shift
2. took the subway to work because i was being a lazy ass
3. explaining the definition of a Chicago hotdog (the best)
5. bought a big kitchen knife
6. procrastinating hardcore
1-5. i failed too many times at work today to even describe
6. walking to work
7. going to yoga
8. beginning the Jillian Michael's cleanse
Successes
1. survived a double shift
2. took the subway to work because i was being a lazy ass
3. explaining the definition of a Chicago hotdog (the best)
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4. stood on my feet from 7am-7pm5. bought a big kitchen knife
6. procrastinating hardcore
the super awesome postcard my best friend sent me from Poland.
bob
Noun: 1. what you call your mom when your nose is really stuffed up (try saying "mom" the next time you're extremely congested)
2. our nicknames
Friday, July 6, 2012
Day 4
Failures
1. going to yoga
2. keeping my work shirt clean
3. finding a table for our apartment
Successes
1. crying from laughing so hard with my co-workers
2. finishing Melancholia
3. purchasing a guide to weddings
4. getting back into reading!!! (Stuff Every Woman Should Know by Alanna Kalb)
5. organizing/updating my calendar
6. finally purchasing wine glasses!
outdid the failures today.
1. going to yoga
2. keeping my work shirt clean
3. finding a table for our apartment
Successes
1. crying from laughing so hard with my co-workers
2. finishing Melancholia
3. purchasing a guide to weddings
4. getting back into reading!!! (Stuff Every Woman Should Know by Alanna Kalb)
5. organizing/updating my calendar
6. finally purchasing wine glasses!
outdid the failures today.
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when insomnia takes over
when insomnia takes over...these are my reoccurring thoughts
i have a love/hate relationship with the page views on blogger. i love them because i see that people are interested. i hate them because i'm starting to feel self-conscious about my writing and thoughts. my intentions are not to impress or interest anybody although that would definitely be a bonus. i just need to do this so that i can have the slight pressure to be creative. if that makes sense. sometimes often times i think i'm insane. and indecisive, contradictory, ironic, etc. i'm a hot mess.
James Jean | Crayoneater
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Thursday, July 5, 2012
Day 3
Failures
1. getting out of bed at a decent time
2. getting off the couch at a decent time
3. finishing watching Melancholia
4. being productive
5. writing another more interesting post than this one
Successes
1. in bed until 11
2. on the couch until 4pm
3. finished watching Moulin Rouge
4. went to yoga (YAY!)
5. got my roommate to do yoga for the first time
6. drenched my new yoga mat in sweat
Quote of the day:
"This guy in my class literally ripped ass right next to me and I just wanted to do the STOP DROP AND ROLL" - my lovely roommate
1. getting out of bed at a decent time
2. getting off the couch at a decent time
3. finishing watching Melancholia
4. being productive
5. writing another more interesting post than this one
Successes
1. in bed until 11
2. on the couch until 4pm
3. finished watching Moulin Rouge
4. went to yoga (YAY!)
5. got my roommate to do yoga for the first time
6. drenched my new yoga mat in sweat
Quote of the day:
"This guy in my class literally ripped ass right next to me and I just wanted to do the STOP DROP AND ROLL" - my lovely roommate
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Day 2
Failures
1. writing a post about 4th of July
2. waking up at 6am to shower before work
3. staying cool
Successes
1. sweating
2. sweat
3. even more sweating
4. working a double on a holiday
5. thinking about seriously pursuing wedding planning
1. writing a post about 4th of July
2. waking up at 6am to shower before work
3. staying cool
Successes
1. sweating
2. sweat
3. even more sweating
4. working a double on a holiday
5. thinking about seriously pursuing wedding planning
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Day 1
Failures
1. waking up early enough to go run
2. run
3. making the homeless man's day by giving him money
4. remembering my laundry ticket
5. feeding the beast enough
6. eating a salad
Successes
1. laziness
2. cured my migraine
3. writing a post
4. mental math of 25+12 = 37 (25 cupcakes + 12 cupcakes = 37 cupcakes ---> I work for Baked By Melissa and we charge by each cupcake)
5. eating salt and vinegar chips
1. waking up early enough to go run
2. run
3. making the homeless man's day by giving him money
4. remembering my laundry ticket
5. feeding the beast enough
6. eating a salad
Successes
1. laziness
2. cured my migraine
3. writing a post
4. mental math of 25+12 = 37 (25 cupcakes + 12 cupcakes = 37 cupcakes ---> I work for Baked By Melissa and we charge by each cupcake)
5. eating salt and vinegar chips
Hopelessly Inventing & More...
The other day my friend Delia showed me Tommy the Pomeranian's tumblr. It was absolutely incredible the amount of hype this unbelievably adorable pomeranian received and all he has to do is pose for a picture and be himself. Which undoubtedly got me thinking that I am incompetent, but it also gave me some motivation to think of some brilliant idea that'll land me some dough and therefore stray me from convincing myself that I will forever be a starving art student. Anyways, I've been thinking about clever ideas while my insomnia takes over. The one I am going to try for now is something I actually thought of while I wrote out my list of things I need to do in order to satisfy my creativity and my mind.
Don't worry. I know I'm an oddball. I'm gradually accepting this conclusion and am in progress with being comfortable with my weirdness. Luckily, I have people who support and share my weirdness so that definitely makes me feel comfortable being strange from time to time. I'm not saying I'm not self-conscious. I can actually become very sensitive to judgements, but I know I'll get over them with time.
This has become a very tangentive (I know it's not a real word, but it really should be) piece...
So back to improving myself. The "beast" refers to my creativity. I can't take any credit for that term. It's actually what the guy I'm seeing (let's always refer to him just as "the guy") had taught me. He calls his creativity "the beast" and I couldn't be creative and decided to do what great artists do: steal :) At least I'm giving him credit though.
The portion pertaining to exercising is something my Dad has always stressed to me. My Dad is a work out fiend. Since I can remember my Dad has exercised every single day. There's also physical proof. Just picture a 5'3" mixture Jackie Chan and Jet Li I suppose. Exercising is important because on the priority list, you have to take care of your body first and foremost...otherwise you'd be dead. Also, working out releases endorphins. Bonus 1. Working out makes you look sexy. Bonus 2. And the bonus list goes on...
Also, I like to run.
The drawing part forces me to continue to polish up my skills. Not that I really have much skills.
Forcing myself to sing in the shower everyday has made me feel happier, wakes me up, and helps me practice my singing. (One of my life dreams is to become a singer at some point...like that'll happen...)
Reading. Must I explain more. I love reading. My Dad also got me into reading. We LOVE reading. I am most thankful for being able to read. It is an incredible gift. (Also, one of my life dreams that is physically impossible is to read as many books out in the world...now I'm really just dreaming)
Doing something nice for someone makes you feel good too. Especially when you see them smile. Smiling is contagious. And good karmic energy. Someone will do something nice for you in the future too, so why not make someone's day?
Finally, fail at something everyday. This is what originally inspired this entire post. I thought long and hard while I tossed and turned on my air mattress. So here goes...
My idea is to list out as well as number my failures each day. Obviously I'm going to have failed way more often than I will ever recognize, but I figured that if I could keep track of most of them, it would visually show me that I am a human being. I fail. All the time. And so does everybody else. So why are we so afraid of trying new things? Why are we so terrified of failure? I've had so many fears that I've conquered, but yet I still fear so many things and it makes me mad because I know that there really is nothing to be afraid of. We can only learn more from our failures, which I find amazing.
"If you've never failed, you've never tried" - Jim Savio
My Critical Reading and Writing professor from first semester taught me that. I hate the feeling of having never tried. I'd rather fail at everything than to have never tried anything. So let's see how far this experiment takes me.
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